WHACK!

Why is it when people want someone to look happy they immediately say think of your boyfriend?

That was so stupid!!!!
Went for ad casting and a test shot all last week.That was when I realised that people think that thinking about ones Bf or gf would make them happy.I mean when I was at the ad casting I was suppose to look happy and contented.I was like ok how do i do that ?Then the casting director Juan says"Think of your BF".

When I went in for a test shot the photographer KK said" Look happy think of your BF!!!"

I was like "CRAP!!!" BF?Non existent at this moment!!!!

But anyway the plot is getting lost.I mean what if it was a bad time in the relationship or the person just broke up or got dumped or something? or that morning the BF or GF was being a bitch?(oh and a guy can also be a bitch, not all but some)

Haih……gripe gripe gripe

Maybe next time they should say think of the ocean or think of puppies.That would be nice.Puppies.Can’t wait for my friend’s shop to bring in puppies.Going to be heaven for me.hehehehe

Maybe I’ll even take pictures and put them up.

Man I wonder how long a person can stand without being able to sleep!!!!!! I just can’t fall asleep!!!!!

For the past 2 days I have been functioning with barely 4 hours.This is so not normal for a person who used to just lie down and take a nap wherever just to calm down nervous energy and intensity…..

Now I can’t seem to sit still for one moment…Need to find a good outlet which is productive since i am awake most of the time.

God should be glad now cause he gives me 24 hrs in a day and I am making full use of most of it by staying awake…Yeah Yeah I know some will be saying how many of those do you spend wasting that time?Depends on what you call wasting time.

Oh TV is a no more anymore here.Took ASTRO out cause no one watches anyway.And everything is repeated.Going out?Sick of malls.Study?Been doing that alot sometimes with hopes that I would get bored and fall asleep.(when that does not happen I am screwed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

And Lily is no help she tells me to just close eyes and go to sleep la.Easy for her to say.

Reading seems to be the only thing that I seem to be doing most nowadays.And really American politics is really crappy.What am I saying? Politics everywhere is really crappy.Just how much of the Times, Forbes and Fortune can one read?After awhile everything sounds the same casue the conclusion is the same.

But I think it would be kinda fun to be a diplomat.Wonder what you have to study or do to get that kinda job?

Well for the next month Sharmini is in Paris with her dad.I was looking forward for her going so that i can have some free time and space….Now I miss my Mini Mouse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Too much time and no one to entertain….Hope this whole month would pass quick.

Wished this insomnia happened before I took leave from giving tuition.Now I really have too much time and energy and nothing to do!!!!!!!!!!!

any suggestions?Please don’t say gardening.My mom and aunt just suggested that to calm my soul……it seems la…Mummy just wants a clean garden!!!!!!!!!!!!

lets see it is now 2 in the morning.Yesterday I logged off at around this time i think or nearly 3, I think.then went up stairs.Could not sleep….then Suchi comes to my room cause she heard me tossing and turning she came to check on me.Ended up talking for an hour.Slept at 4 something and had to get up at 8 cause had to get to Jalan Gasing PJ for appointment.that lasted till 11.30 and drove to KL for class at 2.And my sadistic college likes to torture their tudents class lasted till 9.15.Only had 1 hr break mind you.Thought I would be tired out to the bone and will be getting some good slep today…Yeah right it’s now 2.15 and I am still here.